Melody's thoughts

Wow, I haven't posted in awhile. I've been spending more time on school. Which isn't happening. I am so lazy, I don't go online so I can do school and I start talking to Jaron and Danny, then I have no time left. For those who don't know Danny is living at the Weidner's house right now. Which is sorta fun. Like last night driving around and being crazy. It is weird sharing my house though, I don't like sharing my computer, it annoys me when people watch what I type, but God is working on my heart and teaching me to be nice. God has also brought me far in the last week. I have been tempted by Satan a lot to stop eating again. Thanksgiving is a hard time for me and will continue to be. I have struggled with not eating to lose weight. I have been eating right for months, but was really having trouble with Thanksgiving while everyone was pigging out. My family are all really skinny and can pig out. My Thanksgiving was pretty good. Played mission risk and got my butt kicked each time. Why do I always get the card that says to kill myself? I'm still working at skateaway, and since they like me I am getting more hours, so yay! I can't wait for Christmas, people e-mail me your Christmas lists of your wants. Well, I should go, leave me comments, and I'll check back soon. God bless ya'll. Random fact: Today is black Friday, do you know why it got its name? Well, the stores named it that, because every year they see their banking accounts go from red to black after Thanksgiving. So, now don't you feel like you know something useless now?

Christmas is coming! Well, not really, it is pretty far away. I should be trying to catch up with school right now, but I'm lazy. I have fallen so far behind and don't feel like trying to catch up. I need to slow down more. What's worse is I just got another job. It is only one day a week and only two hours but it is twenty more dollars that I need right now. I'm trying to find another job to replace my job at skateaway. I wish I didn't have to work so much, but I have to have money for car insurance and other crap. In other news, God is awesome (I always say that.). Last night at youth group there was a drama team that came, they were really good. I think lots of people got touched by them. I always enjoy drama teams, I always pick stuff out that God is teaching me. That is all for now. Thanks for listening to my gibberish today. God bless.

Happy 1st day of November. All is still well. God has been teaching me lots of stuff again. That makes me happy. I fully trust God.
Work is slow, I am going to get a new job once I get my license, but can't get my license till I have enough money to pay for insurance. So, therefore I am stuck at skateaway for now. It is a great place to go, but not to work any more. I miss having Debbie there, skateaway is no longer welcoming and homie like before. Now it is a hang out.
Not much I have been doing, hung out with Kairsie and Ryan yesterday. I had to much fun, I love being a kid. We made a big leaf pile and were playing in it.
Last but not lest, I would like to say I am sorry to whom ever can't stand me right now. But I am also not perfect and no where near it. I'm sorry but life is hard and I don't need my friends feeling like crap around me. I love my friends and would do almost anything for you guys. I need to work on things I know, but don't we all? Not that I am trying to take the blame of me but I am trying my best. Well, I have to get back to school work. God bless ya all and have an AWESOME day.