Melody's thoughts

The winter retreat was lots of fun. Sledding on my butt in an empty pool. Dancing with a broom, and tons of snow! I also was showed lots of stuff by God, and met/got to know lots of fun people. Jess is so awesome. As always people get hurt and Deanna was in the hospital. But God is still awesome. I have a date for my drivers test, but I am not saying when because I plan on failing and then people will never know if I fail if I don't tell them when I am taking it. The snow is so fun, my mom wants me to drive. I was driving today, couldn't see the roads and was sliding into the other lane, but my mom said I handled it really well. The whole time I was going "I'm sliding, I'm sliding." kinda like in the movie Kong Pow when the kids are going "we're children, we're children." It was lots of fun and I can't wait to get out on my own.

Well, I am back. I only update my blog when something is bugging me, or so it seems like it. I am a little upset about how much I stank at quizzing last night. Well, the questions themselves sucked. It was the fifth question till any one got points. Then I sang a song on the way home about it. It was fun to see lots of people again. I was amazed at how much some people change. Any how I went to bed with a lot of questions stuck in my head. I was praying for awhile. I have so many choices and was confused as to what God wants. I was upset about a lot of things that are going on. Then I wake up and find out a relative died this morning, one whom I was trying to bring to Christ. My mom is really upset and it is hard. I loved her, she was really fun, but how do I cope when I know she didn't know Christ? I am stuck. I pray but I still will miss her, I keep thinking it is my fault, what if I could have brought her to Christ? I could have saved her, I didn't try hard enough. Now missed my chance and I will never see her again. So, please pray for me because I am feeling really guilty. It happened so fast. She was fine, we got a call yesterday that there was a blood clot in her brain or something. I didn't even get to say good bye. Any how I am going to go. Winter retreat this weekend. I can't wait, hope God shows me lots of stuff and problems are lifted for a weekend. I really need to just get away from life.

Well, the computer is back! Cleaned everything off. We had 372 spywear. Crazy. It makes me happy to have the internet back. Well, life has been going alright. I am trying a new church, feeling God calling me away from Zion my home church. I am praying were to go. Still working on getting my license. School is going okay. I took a test and did really bad. So, my mom graded it and then threw it in the fire! I was laughing so hard. My mom said that test didn't count. My mom is crazy. Living at my house is crazy. It was fun for awhile, but lately it has been lots of fights between people. I hate fighting, I am against raising voices. And when every one is mad it is hard. I try so hard. But life is good. I am enjoying every day as it comes. I love waking up and digging into God's word seeing what he wants to teach me through the days struggles. I am realizing that God knows how much each person can handle. Because some people can't handle what I am going through but I don't think I could stand being in their shoes either. I have to thank My LORD every day that I have the house I do. I have so much crap. Well, I have to go. God bless ya'll.

Good morning to all. Life has been going great, fast, but great. I can't believe it is 2005 already. I am looking forward to some stuff coming up such as: quizzing, winter retreat, and getting my license. Quizzing starts soon, the first practice is Thursday, unless it snows. The new year is going good so far. I think I lost about 2 pounds or something already. Don't be worried, I didn't try. I haven't been feeling the greatest, and nontheless my stomic and food aren't getting along very well. Thanks to all that came for Jaron's concert, they sounded really good. Because of computer problems I have to keep this short. We are taking everything off and reloading windows on the computer and putting fun spywear blockers because we have serious problems. Well, God bless ya all.