Melody's thoughts

Guys I need your prayers for my family right now. Twenty minutes ago my dad called he was in a serious accident. The truck is totaled and I sit here not knowing what happened or if he is okay. My mom is driving over there now. Tomorrow I won't have a car to go to work. We now are short a car since I sold mine. Can somebody drive over to my house now and give me a hug? I am hoping that soon my mom calls saying my dad is fine. I just want to hear his voice now. The accident was near his work which is an hour away. Pray that God is with us right now.

I need to start thinking things through. I feel so far from my friends, I am not honest with people any more, I hang with them but I always put on a hapy face. Sorry for rejecting people.

All my friends will be back in December but I work like everyday and it is all day sessions. I also work new years into day. A 13 hour day, yay for having brakes every four hours now! But dang it stinks instead of praying in the new year I will be working. I'll prob be burning a pizza when new years comes and thinking that I have almost eight hours of working then go right to church.

It was a good day with lots of food. I ate so much. Then played a good game of risk and won. Now I am tired and home. Hope ya'll had a great day. I am going to watch a movie. Tomorrow I am hanging with Josh and Deanna and Sat I am babysitting like 40kids.

Everyone that knows me knows I had no plans on going to college. My parents didn't support it either. Well, I got accepted into Lancaster Bible College. I got in on Friday and start in Jan. I won't be staying at the college but it will be hard to do a semester of college and finish up my Sr year. I am doing over time of school because I almost have to be done by Jan. I am only going for a couple classes. Of course all those classes have to be in the morning so I'll have to leave the house by 6:30 each morning and come home and work at skateaway till 11 at night. College will be hard. I will have papers due the first day of school....yippie. This is so weird and unlike me. I just applied for the heck of it and didn't think I would get in. My classes are free I just had to pay $87 for the paper work or something. My brother didn't know until last night that I even applied for college. This is happening so quick and crazy.

I got my package from EMM about STAT. I know I should be happy but something saddens me. With that package I also received a letter from my compassion child Sarita. She was pleading I pray for her dad who is in the hospital. My heart broke when I read her words. At the end of the letter there was a note.....he had passed away after she wrote the letter. His kidneys had stopped working. My heart brakes for that family. She is only six and is confused, I just wish I could hug her. Her mother is out of work because she just had a baby....they named the baby after the father. It is amazing how close I feel to this little girl. She is so beautiful and strong.

Okay so my little heart was crushed as I listened to the radio. They played Thousand Foot Krutch and said the song was off the CD "That's what people do". I thought they must have screwed up because TFk only has three CD's and I have them all. Here TFK has another CD!!!! I went to buy it and it is $59.99!!!! CHECK IT OUT HERE. I guess I will never get that other TFK CD....too bad.

I have to go back to the doc's again with my back. My mom is going to have x-rays done since they never took any. She says there is no reason for me to be in so much pain and they say it is nothing. My dumb chiropractor keeps ignoring me now, and he won't tell us how much insurance money is left. My mom thinks he is brushing me off because we ran out of money. I hope this doesn't turn into a legal thing.

I am very grumpy right now. I hate being an on call employee. I had plans tonight and got called just now that I work in less then an hour. I have no choice either. I agreed to be on call for the rest of the month, meaning any session they want me they'll call and I have to drop everything. My mom is freakin' out on me but I can't help it. Money is still short even though I sold my car. I know that I sold my car and am working crazy hours but can't stay caught up on my bills. It isn't that I am not responsible. I just have too much to pay for. It will be another night without supper. No time or money to get food. In four weeks I have to pay $850 for insurance for another year. Okay, I am going to stop complaining. Just tonight Travis had better be nice to me. Hey, I am driving a cool car now though. YAY! Too bad it isn't mine.

You know you live in 2005 when...





1) you accidentally enter your password on a microwave







2) you haven't played solitaire with real cards in years







3) the real reason for not staying in touch with your friends is that they don't have a screen name









4) you'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing to button on the tv.








6) your boss doesnt even have the ability to do your job.







7) you read this list, & keep nodding and smiling






8) as you read this list, you think about sending it to all your friends






9) and.. you were to busy too notice number 5.












10) you actually scrolled back up to check that there was no 5










11) & now you're laughing at your stupidity










12) Comment if you fell for it. You know you did.

I have had far too little sleep in the last 48 hours. Sorry about your daughters head Jeff. I told her she couldn't fly.=)- Any how I think I am going to start saving for STAT. I don't know if I am in yet but I might start cleaning for people from church and see if they'll give a couple bucks. I am trying to babysit for some cell groups and get a little cash there too. I have no idea how much money I need for STAT but I trust that God will provide as he has through each day.

I sit alone dark theater watching the people go by
hand in hand every body but me
I stay behind watching the credits roll by
But I won't cry
Because there is some body
some body is waiting for me


that's a really good song. I like to listen to now matter if Isaiah says it is depressing. I think it is up lifting. Life is good and I am waiting and praying for the days ahead.

Okay so I had my interview today. I was really scared. I was praying before she called though and God was showing me a lot. Like he wants me to be open and minister where ever I end up. I started reading my Bible and come to the verse, "be a light onto the world." That stuck out and I started praying about it. All the while I had a CD on that a friend Ryan gave to me that I never listened to and it had a whole bunch of random songs and as I was praying about being the light to the world the song "Shine" by Newsboys came on. After the song was over Sherrie called. Something about her made me calm down a lot. So all in all I say it went well and I'll find out in the next two weeks if I am in. She seemed to push me going into YES instead of STAT. But we'll see what happens.