Melody's thoughts

My Christmas is going good so far. It is only Eve but the service went well. I fooled Brook with a fake nose ring. He was so mad at me and wouldn't talk to me but then laughed a little when found out it was fake.
Ready for my weird brake down about stuff I don't talk about on my blog? Well, after cleaning the church Brook and I went looking at Christmas lights, didn't have much luck. Then got Chinese food which I have to do every Christmas Eve now since Kairsie and I started that. We went back to his house and ate in my car and were talking and stuff and he pulls out roses! Ugh he is so sweet. Any how my dad now says he doesn't have to ask me out because roses speak for themselves. =) Okay good night and I am sorry for all the ones reading this and gagging or wanting to throw old mushrooms at me.

Well, after a year of complaining I finally quit my job at skateaway. People keep asking me why. Here is my list (and more to add): Travis, Still getting min wage, new job came around, too far to drive, hard work, bad hours, drinking parties (that I wasn't in on thank you very much.), every other employee there drinks and swears all the time.
So that's some reasons why I finally quit. I am working till December 28th. Jon and Lyn my Thursdays will be free for quizzing now. Please keep praying for money stuff for me. I really felt it was time for me to quit though. Ta ta skateaway.

I'm an angel in this years Christmas play. I wish it wasn't so normal. It doesn't give the effect of what it was. This is real. Those shepherds left everything, their whole life to see this baby. Why can't we give up a day and totally seek God out? I know I am a busy person but not that busy and I struggle with finding time for God. I would really like a devotional for Christmas, but I still want people to see how real this is. Well, I have to go mail my Christmas cards. Have a Blessed Christmas everyone.

How can you look at a beautiful girl like that and knowing that her whole family lives on 33cents a day and not want to help? I wish there was more I could do. Please sponsor a child, and thanks to all my friends who do. Getting letters is such a blessing that you don't understand till you have a compassion child. My dear Sarita writes back really quick and sends pictures and makes things for me and Isaiah. Not only can you save these kids and their families but you can bring them to Christ. Be a missionary to them at home. Being a sponsor you can share Christ with them because they love you because they know you care so much about them. With youth group not having a compassion child I encourage those yg people to get their own.

The church got a new vacuum. It is so awesome. It was $420 but it is soo nice. You have to see it, but only me and my mom are allowed to use it. So that has been my highlight.
I got a letter from EMM my commissioning date is July 9th because that's when I am done training and leave. So guys I get to see you if you come. It is at Petra.
I also got a Christmas card today from my compassion child and her family. They made it for me. I am so happy and am going to write her right back. She is so cute and I absolutely love her to death. She has been such a blessing to me.

I slowly drift away because the closer I get to you the more I realize my heart isn't here. It is funny how just sitting in a car or watching a movie God shows you stuff. You have to be open and ready. I look around me and all my closest friends and family are here but yet I know I don't belong right now because God is calling me somewhere else. It is hard but I feel so empty here.

I am so excited because I can go home for purple door!!!! I will be coming home and right after re-entry I leave for purple door. It will be so hard though. Because coming back and having all those emotions from STAT and then going to something so "rich" with people that are spoiled. Last year I still had Costa Rica in me and wanted to tell people to stop complaining because we have it so good. But I am glad to go with my family.

It has been a crazy but yet amazing week. Things went bad but the good still over powers it. This past week God has taught me a lot. Over the weekend I realized that I had to let some stuff go because I can't be a good prayer group leader if I have stuff that I never talked about.
Also over the weekend I got so much more passion for missions. I can't wait to go back to HDC even without my friends, because I know I will be with other Christians who are all there for the same reason. I have been scared of leaving my friends and missing everybody but I know I need to step out of my comfort zone and do what I KNOW God is calling me to. Not saying I won't miss everybody I know I will but you guys can write me lots of letters each day and send me goodies.

My dad is home and "alright". I say that in quotation marks because he is physically okay but emotionally a mess. Please keep praying. Also pray for driving arrangements. I have four part time jobs and am trying to get a car to go to work. Which means I am driving my mom places so I can have the car. My mom and I are sharing the van now. So, there was my update, please keep praying for the family. I got to see the truck yesterday. The whole hood is smashed up. Poor truck, I am still wondering if it is a good thing I sold my car because if I didn't he would be driving the Del Sol and would have been killed on impact with that small car. Of course now my mom hates that he is driving the Del Sol because there are warnings with that car that say how unsafe it is. Well ta ta for now. Luv ya all.