Melody's thoughts

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.
I love Harrisburg Discipleship Center. Really I do.....seeing Gabby there today made me miss it so much and I can't wait to live there for a little come June. So for those asking if I am really excited or not you guys have no idea. It brings me so much joy knowing what is in store for me this summer. I love you guys, but God has called me to do this and I am not complaining because I am loving it already. Satan has really been attacking me and I can't let him win. I know he knows I can do great things for the kingdom of God and he is scared about it and trying to stop it. Ugh I can't wait.....=)
On a side note Rachel, Zach, and Josh had better be coming up for spring brake.....I MISS YA'LL SO MUCH!!!
And I have also been realizing how hard it is to truly focus a dating relationship on Christ. But it is well worth it. So, Yay to my Brook for letting me rant and being there to talk to. And thanks for not flippin out on me when I don't let you go to bed because I need someone to stay up and pray with me. I like you my dear friend! (we aren't dating yet though)

Apparently there is tons of drama in the Reading group for quizzing. Praying for ya guys. I don't understand why people bring drama into quizzing. It is soo much fun and I have gotten to know lots of people threw quizzing.

Also I am looking forward to Spring Break for the first time in my life. I really want to see Rachel and Zach.....that would totally rock my world three times over.

Shouts out to: Graham, Morgan (for apparently getting hit by a car), Zach, Rachel, and my mommy.

in conclusion: I hate having fights with people I live with. Or fights in the house, it gets old, give up and get over it.
I am giddy right now. But yay for being giddy of of God's love right now. I have so much joy and excitement for life. He is teaching me so much right now. Reminding me the basics of salvation and how much I need him.
I got a 92% in my report/speech I am mad because I could have gotten that "A". I will try for the next couple papers but I am having so much trouble getting these together.

Remember those days? Kimber, me and Rachel being powerpuff girls for the Zion New years eve party. O, how I miss that. And Lynn F. seriously made those customs five min before we left. I miss Rachel.=( I can't wait till June when she visits me before I go into STAT.

Quizzing was okay yesterday. My team didn't do the greatest but I quizzed out all six matches meaning I am staying in the top fifty for another week. I will post later when I find out what place I am in. Well, I had all weekend to do my homework and pushed it off till the day before so I need to get to work. God bless ya all
p.s. I hate that I keep taking God for granted. I was listening to this new Christian talk about how good God is and how much He has blessed him and even brought him and his mom back together. It was funny he was saying how God rocks and goes, "Muffins for all eternity." Apparently he thinks there will be muffins in heaven. Anywho I like talking to new Christians because they can be the ones who are really passionate about God. It refreshes my love for God.

I had to speak in class today. I hate speaking in front of people, but it wasn't soo bad. My teacher after class said he loved seeing me be all nervous and that because I stepped out of my comfort zone a little I get a little bit better grade! Yay! Only four more times I have to speak, should get easier each time. I guess it is helping me even if I don't get a good grade.

I am nosy. Maybe I should become a spy.=)

Do I think this early in the morning? Maybe..... I am in a good mood. Except for my sandwich tasting like rubber. My mom decided I should eat before school and bought me these breakfast sandwiches. Yay mom for buying me them, boo them for suckin.

I have been realizing how I have great friends. So as cheesy as it sounds me saying this on some holiday about love, well, I love you guys! Even Isaiah has been really nice to me. So thanks to everyone and special props to God because he rocks, is awesome, and he is the keenest.

College is good only because I got to interview Ruthy yesterday. I love Ruthy. I had to make it short since I had to go, but it was nice to see her. I will be interviewing her again soon.

Quizzing was canceled on Sunday because of the snow.=( So we have a double week coming up. I really hate studying already for Sunday's material but maybe I should. I am trying to enjoy the snow and I am glad because I had some awesome peeps come over and sled. well, college time! God bless.

I'm alive.....? I'M ALIVE......and procrastinating from my papers. Dang I hate being so busy with work, school and crap that I don't even know if I am happy or not. I mean after a month of college I am still an "A" student and I am tied for thirty for quizzing which should make me happy, but am I really happy or just overworking myself again? Augh too tired to even care at the moment way to go for only getting enough sleep to count on one hand again. I think I got more then six hours of sleep one night this past week. Too many papers, too much reading, too much school. What was I thinking doing college and my Sr year? I should have finished more school last year and not had five credits for my Sr year with college. Too late now......ya, know being busy even with Christian schools isn't letting me spend my proper time with God. Well, I baby sit tonight and hope I can get some hw done and read my Bible then. I have to clean the church first.

Music really has been helping me a lot. Yay for A.j having tons of Skillet songs on her computer. I am doing great. I love Lyn and have been letting God move in my life in areas that I pushed away and didn't ever want to see again. It was cool last night how God set up things in my life and I somehow ended up at Jon and Lyn's house which rocked.
I have decided to become strong by first becoming weak. I love you guys! I need to get back to my reports due soon. Since I have been pushing them off.


Little girl don't you cry
This boy can't steal what's inside
Let my Father hold you up
Heal the thoughts that make you throw up
I know this life has been hard on you
But the next will never end
Only thing I know to do
Is to ask my Father to heal you
No soap will every scrub away
The memories, the memories

You are worth so much
It will never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You are wanting to be
Tears falling down again
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
You are worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you

Well, I am finally starting to have trouble again since the winter retreat. I knew it was coming I just pray God keeps me strong through it all. I feel guilty because of course I have to start struggling again just as I become president of Youth Group. I want to help those in youth group, but I am not above you guys so please don't think I am. I just wanna hang and talk and be friends. I can't wait till this summer. I have raised $425 already and that excites me. There are so many people encouraging me to go.

Another thing God was showing me is from quizzing. I was reading it today and I realized how much I want people to look at what they believe. I was reading Luke 8:4-15 about the parable of the farmer sowing his seed. I am the seed that was among thorns because I am always letting life's worries get to me, it is hard for me. But I pray we all get root and stay close to God.

Everything's fallen to pieces in my broken life.
Feeling I'm numb to the spirit inside.
Has my heart changed?
It's beating on its own.
I'm feeling all alone;
I can't even see who I used to be.
A man once filled with joy.
Who always made the choice to think with his heart.
Oh no.
Where is the life that I used to feel?
The love was real, burning deep inside.
Where is the pain that I long to touch.
No matter what - I need to feel alive.
Living a lie.
My passion will escape,
Beneath the great mistake
my own misery.
How can I break this hardened soul of mine?
I'm running out of time for my recovery.
Where is the life that I used to feel?
The love was real, burning deep inside.
Where is the pain that I long to touch.
No matter what - I need to feel alive.
Everything's fallen to pieces in my broken life.
Feeling I'm numb to the spirit inside.
I need your touch

I really love quizzing! Thanks Jeff for putting the pics up.


It is weird when you let God totally be in control of your life. I was coming home from college and God told me to go to the mall. I was like, "Uhh God it is 9:45 the mall isn't open." But I went I parked and I didn't want to get out. There was nothing I needed at the mall why go in? But I went in and there were old people walking around for some gym class. All the stores were closed and so I sat down and was praying. Then decided to get up and walk, wouldn't you know that the nicest people were there and needed to see me? I talked to some old guys and I made their day I put this sparkle in their eyes. Yes, I took 30min out of my day for an odd reason but God was teaching me to be flexible.

On another note I am quizzer number 56! So close to the top fifty in fact my score is the same as the person in 51st place but since Zion comes last I am 56.

Psalms 91:14"If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says GOD,
"I'll get you out of any trouble.
I'll give you the best of care
if you'll only get to know and trust me."

Hmm....anyone wanna let me use their computer? I have big reports due like next week which I never got started on because my Microsoft word is broken. It won't come up and when it does it ALWAYS freezes. So I am trying to figure out how I am going to get these dumb papers done.

I miss Josh Fuhrman. I really do and I am just realizing how much he meant to me and how much I want that friendship back. Well, I am going to take the rest of the day off and pray. I got all my homework done except the papers and am ready to go pray. God really does work through prayer.